you want to absorb, consume, perhaps enjoy. you want time for your kids, your trees your collection of expensive inanimate objects.

cannot do everything, be everything, see it all. no time for that. no time.

you cannot find it. lost. a few billion places to look. no breadcrumbs on the path to tell you where you came from. the birds ate them. or the dog. or you? gone.

think of a wonderful thought. any happy little thought.

there you go.